Confessions of a Christian Fitness Coach: Am I Enough?

Friday, 11 March 2016

Scrolling @instagram this morning I came across a pic that looked just like this, except instead of the word "he" it said "you".



"you are enough".

At first, I shook my head and my confidence inflated... YEA! I am enough!  But as my thoughts continued, the quiet, still voice of the Holy Spirit slowed me down. He didn't speak, he simply moved the direction of my thoughts.

A sermon I listened to with Superman flooded back to me in an instant. The message addressed the question of whether or not it was possible to be God-first in a me-first world?

My heart skipped a beat.
Moments before I was caught glorifying my flesh.

MY ability to be great.
MY existence to be enough.

And now, I can't help but wonder if I'm just like everyone else? Always seeking MY status, MY position, security and stuff to reinforce the belief in MYSELF that I'm enough. And at the end of the day, do I ever really believe it's enough? Isn't there always more I'm searching for or wanting?

I'll be honest, working as a fitness coach frequently challenges me. Daily the fitness world calls forward my insecurities and I'm temped to focus inward relying on my own strength.
Am I good enough?
Can I compete with her?
Will they want to participate in my camps?
Will the right people find me?
Am I strong enough?
Am I fit enough?
Do I know enough?
Do I do enough?
Am I skinny enough?
Am I in shape enough?
Do I share my story enough?
Am I being transparent enough?
Am I being relatable enough?

The list could go on and on. And as I was stopped this morning dead in my Instagram-scrolling tracks, I couldn't help but follow what God wanted to teach me:

I don't want to live a life where I'm seeking MY sufficiency. I don't want to have a job where I'm constantly focusing or calling into question my adequacy! Because really, that's not Gospel-centered living. That's NOT following Jesus' commands of His children. And before I'm a fitness coach, I'm a follower of Christ.

Jesus, HIS way, comes first.

Francis Chan talks about this in his book, "You and Me Forever" when he says "everyday the world bombards you with messages of power, independence, and control. Jesus tells you the opposite: die to yourself"... as Christians "we have told God that we no longer want to live for ourselves. We want Him to take over. We actually desire a Master. Unlike Adam and Eve in the garden, we want to submit to God's rule. We are happy to surrender. We are happy to see our life become His".

Wow.

God has called us forward to experience HIS power, HIS status, HIS sufficiency.

Not our own. 

The pastor of the sermon we listened to, reinforced this by stating it this way: "Clutching at the heal mentality (reference to Jacob and Esau) is never enough. You can never just be "thin" you have to be "thinner"... Have to be better than another".

'Enough' or sufficient satisfaction in ourselves is a dangerous area to tread. It calls our vision and focus inward creating a dependence on our own abilities instead of directing our hearts upward to the Creator and what He's accomplishing in and through us.

Yes you are enough. BUT you're only enough because HE is enough.

His sacrifice has freed you.
His love has captured you.
His presence has won you.
His power has sustained you.
His hand has protected you.
His mercy has provided for you.
His life was given for you.

All that we are, all that we have is only because of Jesus. So let us redirect our hearts, our minds, our souls to feast on the only one who IS sufficient, Jesus Christ.

Whether you are working in the fitness world like me or not, let us transform our mind to live DIFFERENT. To not emphasize our ability to be "enough" but to continually point out how HE is enough! 

I want THIS to be my focus in my social media, my business, and most importantly consistently playing out in my life.

The best news ever as I grapple with this new lesson: God is comfortable in the conflict and not awkward with my inadequacies. So I can let go with trying to convince or prove in action that I'm enough.

Rest in His grace. Rest in His sufficiency.

He covers us.

HE.IS.ENOUGH.

Live Sown with Strength,
Courtney 


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