Confessions of a Christian Fitness Coach {Perfection}

Thursday, 4 February 2016


“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”
(Philippians 4:6-7 NLT)

I'm always chasing more and I'm never finding enough.

I spent the past week trying to justify why I need to purchase a $500+ camera for my business + blog. I spent that same energy trying to convince my husband why it was a necessity. I actually threw a tantrum over it. 


When did I become more focused on perfection over purpose? On staging over reality? On more over enough? 

Provision keeps coming up in my current bible study of Exodus + Matthew. And I identify with the Israelites in the desert. 

I want more. No, I NEED more. I thirst for what isn't mine; I hunger for what others have. Provision is meant to be ENOUGH. And ENOUGH isn't good enough. 

So I want to strip it down and focus more on my provision and less on needing/being more. I want to settle into reality and stop toying with perfection. I want to let y'all see a snapshot into MY world, and not just a pretty square staged with just the perfect amount of lighting. 

Because let's be real, who's perfect? Who's flawless? We're not. We're just being the best we can 🤗

So here's my reality: I can get stubborn as a goat and in a hot second right back to being sweet as a peach; I fight for what I want when I really believe in it; I hold my ground on my boundaries and morals- always; I never pick up after myself (though I'm convinced I'm growing in this area, Superman might disagree 😒); I like to make budgets but horrible at sticking to them when the first sign of adventure arrives; i am insecure about myself but somehow I'm ALWAYS sharing the depths of my soul with everyone; I constantly battle over future worries that are altogether nonexistent in the present; i am horrible at hiding PMS because I sob like a baby over EVERYTHING for a good solid day (anyone else? 🙄); I get sad when someone does better than me 😳; I'm ridiculously competitive and I'm learning how to compete for the right things; I prefer my hair highlighted blonde and straight or loose beach curls; normally, it's got roots and psycho ringlets. I love Jesus more than anything but I lose sight of this love daily, drawing me back to my knees in total dependence. I'm super independent and sometimes I fail to see the value in sharing, or community. I get cranky if I go to bed past 12am; and I don't like doing something if I can't do it right. I'm horrible at shooting a gun, but can make the best choc chip cookies, pancakes or guacomole. I used to make fun of stay at home moms, and now I crave that future. 

I'm so far from perfect; there's so much more than this highlight reel. 

So today, I'm sharing this piece of my heart because I want to encourage YOU!!! 

So to the girls out there who are just like me.. Wondering how to be smart or pretty or cool or put together ENOUGH... Know this: your life is so much more than the highlights you share on social media.

You're not any less awesome if you have only 1 follower and you're not anymore cool if you have 1 million. 

KNOW THIS: People's awareness of you or your ability to stage a pretty set up or snap a well-lit picture does not define you. 

Whether you travel to a top destination every other week or get up, go to work, and come home feed your family, do the laundry, go to bed just to do it all over again... BOTH are beautiful. 

BOTH are awesome because it's REAL life. It's messy, it's got cracks, and pimples; it has heartache and bills to pay; it has routine and monotony, it has jaw-dropping sunsets, and near impossible uphill climbs. 

This is OUR reality; why isn't that enough? Why can't we OWN our reality!?Let's BE our own awesomeness and SHARE OUR story no matter who listens, who likes, who follows. I BELIEVE this truly glorifies God. He takes delight in our willingness and thankfulness to live with what he's given us and rest within it.

Do you. 
Enjoy today's provision.
Live with less.
Let your hair be messy.
Wear no make up.
Release perfection.
Find purpose.
Believe in the beauty of YOUR reality. 


Living Sown with Strength,

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